COPYRIGHT OF DEE : kick tt stone, n get over it

u know sometimes when u say somethin or do somethin tt pple have their own blardy opinions on, they tend to disagree, get pissed, some tok it out, some keep it in n then e resentment grows til one day it will explode.. n u know wat, everyone has their own opinions.. when i wrote tt previous post regardin malay n chinese guys blahblah.. i was entitled to my own opinions wasnt i? yes tt racist rader did go off in me.. but wat i wrote were merely facts.. dun judge me man.. my ex was malay.. n so was e guy i dated before tt.. if u cant take e facts ive experience based on solely my own opinions.. kick tt damn stone n get over it thank u very much(COPYRIGHT OF DEE!)

on a totally unrelated note.. exam's tml! n so is my genting trip! finally a break!

minahlian
- 12:51 PM

my virgin trip to mt faber.

can u believe it. no guys who wanted to date me has ever wanted to bring me up to mt faber okie. hmm. n i wonder y until mr neighbor said maybe most were malays n had no transport of their own. in case u dint know. its a damn long uphill road leading up there. im not makin a racist statement here alright. but thinkin back. yea. kinda true la. somehow i attract more malays. i dunno if tt s a gd thing considerin im a chinese n e diff in cultures n so many other stuff. but nw. no more la. gotta concentrate on wat i tot were "boring typical chinese guys". haha.. its quite diff for me to find a chinese guy tt u know excites me mentally n emotionally. hmm.i used to think they juz dun appeal to me. we shall see.

minahlian
- 12:18 PM

when i flagged for that cab down to club momo with mr neighbor for his frens bday, we nv tot tt that nite would be one tt is as eventful as it is memorable. weird turn of events, certain secrets were exposed, the whole chain of events were juz like it was photocopied from a drama series.. anws the followin pics may be graphic n unglam so viewer discretion is advised.


a toast for the bday girl on my rite

downin my 4th glass

party pple

bday girl

look at those pouts baby

neighbor boy

spot me?

clue: centre, podium, hand flailing.

ermm

yup

hah

hmm

yeyy

minahlian
- 4:05 PM

a fren once said to me.. the most heartwrenchin thing is when two pple know tt they like each other but cannot be tog.. i think im beginnin to learn the true meaning of tt.. n it hurts so much to e extend u juz wana go out n literally F ard so tt u can show him tt u feel wanted by other pple as well.. sometimes i juz wish i was more matured, more understandin, better looking, hotter, less sensitive, more supportive, more open minded, more wanted, blah blah.. i hafta get myself outta this shit.. i am goin too.. done it once..can do it again..

"The Way I Do"

Your kiss, your smile, your mind
You're sunlight in my eyes
I miss your breath on my neck
When we whisper in the night

Didn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
Now look what you've done

Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I cant fake it.
I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do.

Your touch, your skin, can't believe the way you let me in
Don't rush tonight, I need you like the ocean needs the tide.

Didn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
Now look what you've done

Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I cant fake it.
I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do.

I always thought I would stand on my own
Climb a mountain top all alone
Relying, depending on no one
Now look at what you've done

Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I cant fake it.
I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do.

Never thought I could love you
Never thought I could need you
Never thought I could want you
The way I do

minahlian
- 10:59 PM

post celebration melancholy

to each and every one of u who took the time out to sweat and laugh w me.. i appreciate it and thank all of u sincerely from e bottom of my heart.. thank u daddy for plannin e whole cel.. even thou ur feet was hurtin u still did it cause ur baby girl is finally a woman.. thank u daddy..

tried my best to mingle with every single social circle.. like walkin here n there n there n here n back again.. sweatin my pits out n lookin unglam juz to make sure everyone felt like they were there for a reason.. if i ever neglected any of u.. im so sori..

post cel at mos was kinda a downer act.. everyone wanted to do their own stuff .. im very disappointed..sometimes i feel tt there s not honesty in frens n r/s.. like we re all masked pple.. then wat s e pt man..

anws i thank e pple for there presents.. exactly wat i wanted ..wat can i say..my frens have good fashion sense n taste la.. =) anws e pics of my nails erm..non existent. cause they kept droppin off so i juz gave up in e end.. haha.. pics of them ..erm.. see wat u can in e pics..


indulgin in some pre party and post prim up session

ma brother

sisters

grandmama

daddy dearest
ma uncle

hottie sijia n her equally hot bf

ex-teacher aunty

godfamily

granddaddy

sec sch guys
sec sch darlings

joyce dear

jen darlin

not a 'mat' zad

neighbor boy

lau "jie"

cutiepie gerald

jansen dear

ryan darling and joy

aunty leslie

hottie zhang
an all glamed up dee dum dee dee

benny boy

rachie dear

the cake key

wish makin
cut cut

family

after gettin dumped into e pool



dry n changed for clubbing

pics are in random.. not all are up.. therefore those who wan their pics.. ask me for it alright! thank u for a day to rem darlings.. =)

minahlian
- 5:21 PM

ah the price of vanity

and so i have longg naillss like how a girl should have nww.. yes fake long acrylic nails cann ..but somehow i feel like im disabled.. im almost 21 and i juz had to get my grandma to unbutton my pants juz so i could go take a shower! like how embarrasing la..even typin is a chore.. nw i wish ive appreciated my 10 fingers with short as hell nails before.. im takin these out rite after tml s party mann.. e manicurist said mine were the smallest fake nails she has ever done.. okie e sizes were from 1 to 10.. 1 being e largest n 2 e norm where most girls are at... ok e biggest size for my thumb was a size 6 and e smallest a 9 so there! haha.. pics up next post..


ok time to get my beauty sleep for tml.. all those pple who r goin.. i ll see u guys laterrr..!

minahlian
- 2:03 AM

not allowin myself to fall into e same hole again.. once bitten twice shy.. lesson learnt.. no more keepin one eye shut when i walk along tt same path again.. juz in case i fall into the same darn hole.. that hole.. that painful hole.

21th bday cel on sat.. like how soon is tt.. well its off to dad s place for tanning session! yup my second tannin session ever! yes im naturally dark laa.. a fren gently reminded me to be careful n try to not look more like a minah.. bleah.. cant wait to see all my old frens again .. all e good memories..

dear god, if u cant make me slim, pls make all my frens fat.

minahlian
- 1:10 AM

shake it like u own it

DXO was greattt!! dint start out tt way thou.. was onli there to fulfill a promise to a fren who was one of e org..n because 2 of e other org were cj girls, so ex cj-ians me n joyce were not keen on it turnin outta be a cj bash la..n so me n joyce dear were like chilling up on e second level.. sipping vodka orange, vodka ribena, rum n coke.. u name it la..cause was free flow for ladiess. whee.. at bout 11 plus after e damn short hiphop battle which was damn good by e way, we wanted to go down, down a drink, dance to one song n leave for prata! haha. then we got up n then someone tapped me.. n whee.. i bumped into two girl frens who were like there in pairs too.. n somethin snapped in me n i got e feeling then it was gonna be a more than great nite after all...

then we were like partyin like crazy bitches laa.. my fren one of e org joined us soon after.. he was like introducin pple to us n all.. let me tell u.. i grinded my first guy tt nite.. n it was.. erm.. weird? u know like u dunno where to put ur hands n he doesnt know where to put them either cause ur both frens n damn awkward la.. n like feelin his ermm thing on ur ass..its like..hmm.. haha.. was all in e name of fun thou.. 2 frens were great guy dancers last nite.. partyin w gd dancers are always a plus.. u know how some pple juz like move from side to side n nod their heads n they assume tt is called dancin! like hello i mean u dun hafta be e world s greatest dancer to juz let ur hair loose n groove to e music even if it means u lookin like an ugly klutz because its okie cause when ur havin fun pple ard u will too! i mean i got called fat tt nite by 2 guys but tt dint stop me from dancin like there s no tml n gettin down n dirty n sweaty n guys who juz wana dance w me not cause im a great dancer but cause im havin so much fun!

there were these ang more guys n one girl like grinding each other n we created a centre for them la.. e girl was not a gd dancer like at all.. but she was havin fun n daring to bare.. so were we la.. then she pulled me into e centre la! me!! like so many pple around can.. shit.. like damn embarrassing.. haha.. but was funnn.. but this angmore guy whispered in my ear after tt.. he said.. i ll see u after e party.. eee.. like ya rite!

great music, great company, great attitude, wat more can a girl ask for.. im a happy girl.. =)

sometimes i wonder how come im not e tyical chinese girl who gets picked up or liked by any guy out there.. yes tt would make me a busy girl.. but a happy busy one wont it! y? cause i look minah? cause i look mixed? cause im not ur typical skinny girl? bleah.. but im happy for u joyce dearie.. muackss.. lets party even harder after my bday cel baby!

minahlian
- 4:47 PM