i really dunno wat to think anymore

maybe i shouldn, at all

minahlian
- 5:50 PM

this youtube clip has been sent to me by like 3 frens la! so i decided to check it out to see if it was over-rated. n its FARKIN BASTARD funny. u ll hafta check it out for urself.

Full clip of the RK House NO POK shite

minahlian
- 1:24 PM

i miss the boyfriend, much.

i know this sounds like its gonna turn outta be a "sappy sob-py oh i love my bf so much i wana die n i cant do without him" entry, well, its erm kinda like tt la. but not to the extend where u would roll ur eyes n rather stick a blunt pencil into urself which u deem w be less painful then listenin to me yak about my bf.

thing is, i ve nv act written a post abt my bf, neither have i ever planned to do so, tt is, until today; when he left to sail for 6 weeks. It was today when i realized i really haf unknowingly let myself fall for someone to the pt where steppin out is no longer an option anymore. i dunno how it happened n i nv wanted to let tt happen when ur vulnerable of being hurt, again.

At the start of the r/s i unconsciously was being difficult to him juz to, u know, test him sorta thing. to see if this one's for real or is he a bad nut juz like the others. i was juz tryin to "crack" him. n with patience n so much understandin, he proved himself to be a keeper. yes, we may stil haf petty arguments n mini disagreements once in a while, but we always manage to work it out(okie la most of the time he gives in to me la k).

Anws u know the sayin, "u ll nv appreciate something/someone til its gone"? nw i really understand then meaning of this phrase. i dunno how im gonna survive the 6 weeks really, i dun wan to go thro it, but wat choice do i haf. bf sailor ma, after 6 weeks he come back break 2 weeks then go off to sail for another month again. like sai la really. It barely been 9 hrs since he set sail n im like this. how sia u tel me! how to survive 42 days, 1,008 hrs and 60,480mins.. okie im being too emo! Hopefully w work n exams, it wil be easier to pass time.

Speakin bout work, u know ah, im down w gastric flu or some viral infection tt caused me to black out a month ago. thing is, i farkin hate is when pple think tt i did somethin tt im not guilty off. i think my manager thinks i took e 2 days mc for fri n sat(got event) because i wanted to be w my bf before he sails off. she said, " i juz wan u to understand the importance of ur responsibilities." wat sai can. like i WAN to be sick la. like i WAN to vomit and lausai n feel dizzy n haf stomach cramps la.

okie la. i guess me n my big mouth also to blame la. from nw on i shall keep my personal life out of the office no matter how nice n comfortable the other party makes me feel. Quoting a fren of 17 -yrs-n-counting, " wat for put ur emotions into ur office, ur not gonna build ur home there wat." true la huh. damn true.

OH! i did my FIRST SONG DEDICATION ON 933FM juz nw!! n my dj fren read it outtt..whee.. she's on i think every sat 9 to 11pm. listen out for her pple! Rem dear not many pple get to achieve their dreams so pls jiayou n hang in there alright! =)

i hope this nostalgia im feelin w fade. i wish time wil pass fast til he's back. i wan to get thro work without gettin doubts from pple. i will make it thro this phase of my life unfazed!

minahlian
- 10:27 PM

nabei! cologne muz pour whole bottle on urself isit!

i tel u ah. i damn irritated can! nabei this morn damn cold then nose running n keep sneezin all ah. i entered the train to go to work. then u know la, in the morn the train damn quiet one rite cos everyone damn farkin stoned kind. so i was like controlling the damn urge to sneeze la. n then my sneeze is not like e "ah choo" like soft like fly kind. my sneeze these few days juz decided to b the bitch, so my sneeze is more like "AH CHOO", like big hippo's sneeze can!

then nabei suddenly i felt this SHOCK of perfume wave hit my nose n i seriously felt the ultimate urge to sneeze can. then i glared ard to see who e culprit is so i can glare at HIM. i know its a HIM cos of cos i can distinguise la duh. Anws. couldnt identify the damn culprit la. then
all the way to dhouby ghaut e 3 stops i was lookin like a stupid prune la. face all scrunched up n nose runnin. nabei. oie la.so here's the anti-climax.. haha. i TAHAN-ED all the way til i got outta e train. then dint feel like sneezin liao. haha. okie la boliao story i know. but bored at work ma.

anws the bf is leavin this sunday for his 6 week sailing . ultimate sian-ness. then come back i think rest for a week then going off to sailing for another one month should be. wahlao. frens. pls ask me out more often horrrr.

minahlian
- 4:40 PM

wah lao all the brand loyalty can.

juz few days back i was innocently powdering my nose at my work cubicle with my Loreal powder case, then sui sui my manager walked past n peeked into my cubicle. Then next thing i knew, she annouced damn loudly saying, " we haf a loreal user here!" then surely my colleague across from me in charge of Za turned n then say, "where's her makeup pouch? throw away!"

eh like surely a bit more brand loyal can! haha. cannot expect me like throw out ALL my non- Shiseido/Za/Ettusais/Cle de Peau stuff when i receive news tt im gonna b workin here rite! but anws the gd thing is, my manager juz handed me a Za limited edition foundation case complete WITH foundation in my skin shade for me to use la! FREE can. surely a bit more cool la.

anws aside from all these work stuff. Nick msned me n told me he wanted my bf to join a competition. i was like ?!?! huh!?!? anws after listenin to it. haha.im SURE my bf wil come out tops la! n all of u girls out there votin ah. pls keep ur votes fair ah! dun onli vote for pple u know or fren fren kind hor! not fair to my bf!

Details of the competition taken from soh's blog.

*EXTRA EXTRA READ ALL ABOUT IT!!*Some exclusive news, for all you regular readers. Following clandestine discussions, the board of hunks has decided on a competition to be held sometime towards the end of the year. It'll involve a beach, guys without shirts, girls with bikinis, and tons of testosterone spilling over into the sea.

*Beauties and The Best*
Venue: SentosaTime: Day timeDress code: Skimpy (guys too)Entry: Guys - $??? Girls - Free entry with a bikini on, free flow guys.

Basically from now til the day of the COMPETITION, the contestants will undergo rigorous self-discipline and training in attaining the physique of Atlas. The contestants will be judged "SURVIVOR"-style, each being voted off until only the best remains. Voting rules to be announced in future; but one confirmed rule is that GF cannot vote for BF. UNFAIR LAR!!! The organisers are still considering the prizes to be given, but rest assured they'll be as attractive as honey is to bees, a fitting metaphor considering how we expect you girls to FLOCK to the contestants on that day itself.

There'll also be preliminary rounds, held online. "How?" you may ask. 2 words - TRASH TALKING. Contestants are invited, NAY, ENCOURAGED, to flame the others. 20% of your grades are gonna be determined by this. Think of it as the Continual Assessment component. The best quotes every week will be featured on our MSN nicks, so whip out those blogs, or your girlfriend's blog, and let the trash talking begin.

Trash talk 1: I swear, I don't even have to train, and my size 42 waist will still look as good as the rest of you wimps.

Stay tuned people for more updates, including a special teaser trailer featuring the contestants themselves!

HAHA! any hot dudes who think ur up for it or can beat my bf let me know! =)

minahlian
- 10:46 AM

juz when i tot i nv hafta do stupid mindless stuff at work ever again, here i am tryin to attached a damn black feather to a black stabilo pen with double sided tape, black satin ribbon n a totally useless bottle of fabric glue for an Ettusais event. (n mind u ah. all this shit i ran from place to place from 12 to 6 yest to go okie! hungry n wet! argh! ) its really DAMN NABEI can! i am damn angry la! i hafta do 20 of this crap can. as if tt wasnt bad enuff, i almost fell to my death at work when i juz came outta e hair saloon room at work n tripped on e blardy step!! NABEI la!! really damn farkin angry like farkity mc fark laa!

dun care liao la.. today i m juz gonna slack ard do things slowly n chill. take my time la. another 6 more hrs before i get off work! time passes really fast, GOOD!

anws the bf's sis is gettin betta. thank u to those who showed concern, appreciate it! her rite side is damn swollen nw thou. i got her a white n black cap to wear when she gets betta. =)

a lotta pics to post but so farkin little time. ahhh.. no time n energy to study also! wahlao this time i really die liao la!

minahlian
- 11:32 AM

my role model

i nv ever expected to look up to someone tt literally know, u know? like how pple say, "oh my role model is my mum/dad/boyfren/aunty/grandma/teacher/ blahblah." But for me, a loved one is nv considered a role model. They re pple i love, yes. They re pple i turn to in my darkest times, yes. They re pple who share thick n thin w me, yes again.

But role model? to me a role model means someone tt u are not n u so badly wana strive to be tt someone. A role model to me means tt, tt person has no flaws watsoever n is so perfect in e way tt i wana BE her. Therefore, a person tt i dun know n someone who is distant from me, cant possibly have any flaws rite. They say frens cant get too close or they wil find out stuff bout e other tt they dun like. Of cos it is true.

Anws, back to my trail of tot. A Role Model. Well, i think i juz met mine yesterday. well maybe not YESTERDAY. but like i really SAW wat she was made of n how she dealt w shit yesterday. well no prizes for guessin- it is my bf's 23 yr ol sis. Even facin a brain op, she was able to joke n smile w us. After the op she regained consciousness almost immediately n could start her lighted hearted jokes w us again. Even thou at the start she was kinda disoriented n incoherent, she stil managed to make us laugh. N she dint even show a teeny bit of fear during e whole process. Amazing? i think it is.

so. i was thinkin of gettin her a cap cos the front part of her head is shaved. n as u know all girls are vain la. so yea. a cap it is. lets juz hope she passes the 48hrs danger period. pray pple.

nw i understand wat it is to obtain strength from another person's strength. Find ur role model pple.

minahlian
- 8:55 AM

You never think it will happen to u, but it will.

my bf's sis is in the ICU at ttsh nw with a tumor in her brain and with the possibility of "going" at any time. she's juz 23 this yr, was a grad from NUS and was holdin a stable job. nw, life seems bleak for her. of cos i may not understand wat my bf is goin thro cos u nv fully understand wat the other is going thro unless u "walk in their shoes". on top of this, he is currently facin a court case for "mis-use of a parkin coupon". i really dunno how to make him feel betta n i guess i can onli be there for him mentally n physically rite nw.

the operation on her is gonna be at 10 later this morn, to find out wat kinda tumor it is. since it is pressin agst the brain, im sure i dun hafta narrate the consequences if somethin were to go wrong. rite nw, im sittin at my work desk waitin for my direct superior to come in to give me my tasks for the day. Im helpless without her, n im sure my bf feels as helpless as he can ever be, maybe a trillion times worse. nw he's at work, waitin to see if his staff sergant can get a replacement to take over the reins of sailing his ship. imagine having to work when a family member's life is uncertain.

i dunno how all this is goin to turn out. of cos i hope n pray tt everythin w go fine. we can onli wait n see nw.

minahlian
- 8:26 AM

IF UR UGLY DUN PULL A SOUR FACE CAN! IT WOULD BE MUCH APPRECIATED. THANK U VERY MUCH!

i know i may sound totally like a bitch here, but im really not. well , maybe i am sometimes. BUT, onli when the occassion calls or person asks for it.

juz yest i was at the new IKEA at tampanies w my grandma n e bf shoppin for throw pillows for my living room. we decided to head to the cafe/food court/eatin place for lunch first. n it was crowdy as hell. so we split to "snatch" tables like typical singaporeans. Well, so happens my grandma plopped her ass down str when a family left their table without noticin the fact tt a couple opp might juz haf come first awaitin that same table.

so... being the nice person tt i always am. (ahem), i asked my grams to get up let them haf it instead. okie so here's the part tt blardy hell pissed e daylights outta me- the gf was starin at my grandma as thou she's a goddamn horrendous alien sproutin foam who juz did the world's most disgusting thing ever. the bf on the other hand was all smiley n asked if it were juz e 2 of us n if we would like to share the table.

RITE! as if i wana sit opp someTHING tt would make me lose my appetite. pls la huh. if ur ugly ah n not pretty ah n dun haf a hot body ah. pls la. at least SMILE can. they say a smile is the best plastic surgery. well tt may not b true in all cases. but well. at least u try rite. this THING here with her damn puffed up cheeks , pimply skin, scrawy body, distorted frame n farked up face had the damn nerve to GLARE at my grandma with her absoutely repulsive eyes.

okie thing is. im not pissed cos she's ugly okie. im not THAT much of a bitch. im downright pissed cos she NEVER ONCE smiled or even tried to smile EVER. n her bf, which is absolutely mind boogling to me tt she would haf one in the first place, on the other hand was such a gentleman.

as luck would haf it, not for HER, tt is. God, or whoever's watchin our confrontation let me haf a table rite NEXT to the creature n her bf. wells as i walked past her, of cos i GLARED rite back at her la. she was alone as her VERY BLIND bf went to order. i gathered up the BITCHIEST SLUTTIEST most farked up pissed off stare n lasered it rite into tt revolting swampthing. i did tt for a few times. how could i pass up the chance of sweet revenge rite.oh n then she picked up her cell, dialled some shit, n toked into it with a hands coverin her mouth bowin her head down low like a coward. oh pls. grow some balls la. if u haf the balls to start A glare. haf the damn balls to finish it like a "man".

well, let me tel u. havin dinner next to the world's most nauseating living entity was NOT gd for my upchuke reflex at all. i dunno how her bf can stand to even look at her for more then 2 seconds. That thing kept lookin over at our table thro-out the whole lunch. after tt i think she even got her bf to look over. dunno for wat. but i could care less.

all this time. i NEVER saw tt swamp animal smile once. but let me tel u. wantin to see her smile was a mistake. HUGE. cos when i eventually did, by accident of cos, i wanted to stab myself repeatedly w a blunt pencil. it would be less painful n less strenous on my upchuke reflex. n even her smile looked nasty.

while my bf n i were away orderin. my grandma told me she had waved the cleaner over to clear our plates. n when the cleaner was on the way to my table. tt disgusting lifeform stopped tt cleaner n flagged her over to clean her table first. lucky the cleaner had some sense n told her to wait. hah. my grams told me thro out the time we were orderin, tt lowlife kept lookin over at her.

i really nv seen someone as rude, disrespectful (to an elderly person), undeservin (of her bf tt is), revolting , gross, repulsive, nauseating, appalling, shameless, revolting....., well i could go on n on, as tt creature. oh i think they re married cos i saw a ring on the bf's finger, well, to the bf: i really applaude the heroic act of u adoptin sucha hideous thing, i hope she does u a favour n leaves u to decompose n shrivel n die.

oki. nw im done rantin. pls do forget everythin u read here. im nv this mean. n i nv make personal attacks on other pple's appearance, well, almost. so dun judge me by this post. cos u would be pissed too if u were to see her pale, gross,.... okie! stoppin nw! forget pls.

minahlian
- 12:05 PM