
Thursday, April 13, 2006
finally a day off from filmin today.. phew.. however when i got up this morn.. i had this weird mellow feelin like somethin was missin.. turns out tt i was missin e crew n e feelin of us all gatherin today for shootin..hmm..quoting my on screen bf.. "e bond sticks..we trust each other see e worst outta each other.but we work on e same goal..its a gd feelin like u belong to somethin" pretty deep words n e most ive heard outta e usually quiet him..
anyways yest's filmin ah.. tel u.. when doc kylie dear had to ask me questions bout my sexual experience n partner ah.. i tel u.. i was seriously genuinely embarassed.. like REALLY.. i had to act embarassed.. n i wasnt acting trust me.. blushin from e roots of my hair after tt shoot was done.. haha.. then tennis scene where i had to faint.. oh man..its was like freakin 2 in e afternoon where e sun was sorchin hot.. had to do 2 takes.. almost died laa.. scraped my knee cause i really dropped to e floor like a sack of potatoes.. then was toleratin e burnin sensation on my skin when vanessa had to push me down harder to e ground when she shook me..
felt really like a star when shootin in sch where everyone was like starin.. tt was when i realized actually everyone has an artiste dream ar.. to become a star..n let me juz say tt it is damn tough being an actor.. im serious..do not try this profession out if ur self conscious, a lazy ass, easily embarassed, untalented or not a pple person..
anyways u know as u grow up.. u tend to wana settle affairs of e heart issues str up..instead of juz having innocent crushes n not acting on them..well..u juz get sick of all e mind games after a while..so nw when i like someone n i feel its time to speak up or hint a little.. i ll juz get to it..beats sittin around n thinkin if he likes u back.. i cant stand guys who avoid issues like this or tend to playin stupid little mind games...like an ah lian would say..pls lor how old liao?? n speakin of crushes.. u know tt tingly anticipatin feelin u get when u see tt individual.. hmm..i think im havin tt again..*grins.. pple who know..betta shuddup ah..
i love e look of concentration on a guy.. juz love e way they re so intently preoccupied w e task at hand tt they block out everythin else.. tt scruched eyebrows n purshed lips.. phew ..simple gorgeous..haha.. n i juz realized tt i like manly guys.. as in those who hav e rugged look n u feel damn protected w them..decent lookin guys juz dun appeal to me..
sighh..long work weekend ahead.. lucky im meetin up w pple i miss..tt s somethin to look forward to isnt it =)
tall dark handsome mysterious intense deep and mesmerizing
minahlian
- 3:05 PM