Saturday, January 27, 2007
i miss the boyfriend, much.
i know this sounds like its gonna turn outta be a "sappy sob-py oh i love my bf so much i wana die n i cant do without him" entry, well, its erm kinda like tt la. but not to the extend where u would roll ur eyes n rather stick a blunt pencil into urself which u deem w be less painful then listenin to me yak about my bf.
thing is, i ve nv act written a post abt my bf, neither have i ever planned to do so, tt is, until today; when he left to sail for 6 weeks. It was today when i realized i really haf unknowingly let myself fall for someone to the pt where steppin out is no longer an option anymore. i dunno how it happened n i nv wanted to let tt happen when ur vulnerable of being hurt, again.
At the start of the r/s i unconsciously was being difficult to him juz to, u know, test him sorta thing. to see if this one's for real or is he a bad nut juz like the others. i was juz tryin to "crack" him. n with patience n so much understandin, he proved himself to be a keeper. yes, we may stil haf petty arguments n mini disagreements once in a while, but we always manage to work it out(okie la most of the time he gives in to me la k).
Anws u know the sayin, "u ll nv appreciate something/someone til its gone"? nw i really understand then meaning of this phrase. i dunno how im gonna survive the 6 weeks really, i dun wan to go thro it, but wat choice do i haf. bf sailor ma, after 6 weeks he come back break 2 weeks then go off to sail for another month again. like sai la really. It barely been 9 hrs since he set sail n im like this. how sia u tel me! how to survive 42 days, 1,008 hrs and 60,480mins.. okie im being too emo! Hopefully w work n exams, it wil be easier to pass time.
Speakin bout work, u know ah, im down w gastric flu or some viral infection tt caused me to black out a month ago. thing is, i farkin hate is when pple think tt i did somethin tt im not guilty off. i think my manager thinks i took e 2 days mc for fri n sat(got event) because i wanted to be w my bf before he sails off. she said, " i juz wan u to understand the importance of ur responsibilities." wat sai can. like i WAN to be sick la. like i WAN to vomit and lausai n feel dizzy n haf stomach cramps la.
okie la. i guess me n my big mouth also to blame la. from nw on i shall keep my personal life out of the office no matter how nice n comfortable the other party makes me feel. Quoting a fren of 17 -yrs-n-counting, " wat for put ur emotions into ur office, ur not gonna build ur home there wat." true la huh. damn true.
OH! i did my FIRST SONG DEDICATION ON 933FM juz nw!! n my dj fren read it outtt..whee.. she's on i think every sat 9 to 11pm. listen out for her pple! Rem dear not many pple get to achieve their dreams so pls jiayou n hang in there alright! =)
i hope this nostalgia im feelin w fade. i wish time wil pass fast til he's back. i wan to get thro work without gettin doubts from pple. i will make it thro this phase of my life unfazed!
minahlian
- 10:27 PM
