Wednesday, September 19, 2007
do you sometimes feel so angry tt you just want to hurt urself? i do.
do you sometimes cry so hard till you cant breathe? i do.
do you sometimes mind fark urself till you cant sleep. i do.
do you sometimes hate ur bf's materialistic ex so much u wish they nv met. i do
do you sometimes slip n fall in fronta a crowd and u wished u were invisible. i do.
do you sometimes talk to yourself when ur all alone. i do.
im not perfect, nobody is, n nobody will ever be. Few days ago, I lost it. I lost my sanity and sent an sms to e bf's fling. till today, if you ask me, im not sori i did tt. it was bitter sweet. sweet in the sense tt i act told (im sure pple must haf told her b4) her tt my bf had seen thro her materialistic ways and asked her to stop contactin my bf. bitter becos im tired from being the jealous, over protective, impulsive, crazy gf to my bf.
i lost it maybe becos i had been tolerating her manipulative and slutty nature ever since i started this r/s. i dunno how she can tel my bf tt many guys like her but she doesnt like them. hmm.. maybe cos none of them are rich nor dumb enuff for you? i seriously dunno how such a arrogant and disgusting creature can suffice in planet earth. she uses sex as a tool to get wat she wans and plays guys as if they are the fool. well maybe they really are.
i want to tel this girl. GET THE FARK AWAY FROM MY BF YOU CUNNING SLUT. I have had enuff of you calling him, gettin him out to meet u behind my back, enuff of you chatting w him on msn, i have had enuff.
Now few of you might be thinkin tt i am siding with my bf simply becos it takes 2 to clap. I am, of cos, fully aware of this fact. I think, and haf alrdy done so, tt its time to finally put my foot down and lay the rules out on the table. every phone cal/msn/sms/frenster msg/email tt goes on, i w know about it.and of cos vice versa from me as well. if anyone finds something done behind the other's back, the r/s is over. period.
my bf promised to stop all contact w her (and another one, yes there is another one) since eons ago. but they keep calling. there has to been a reason y. n im set to find tt out.
cal me the crazy bitch if you may, i w try my best to protect my r/s til e day i feel too tired to do so and the feeling is not mutual anymore. Til tt day, I promise to give all i can to my current r/s, to exhaust every chance given possible and love the best i can. n if we decide to end it one day, it will be without regrets.
I hope the hk trip this sun does us gd.
minahlian
- 9:11 PM
